On finishing my second year of college, I decided not to go back. God has definitely lead me to that school for a reason and those two years were a great learning experience and an opportunity to grow into who God has created me to be. I made wonderful friends, dated my first boyfriend (which didn’t last long..) and learned so much about life.
What now? I’m not continuing in my education just yet. I haven’t been able to find a job. Is God leading me somewhere? Missions work, maybe? I don’t know.
Distant. The word that is used so many times in my thoughts. It’s beginning to describe my life. I feel distant from God; I can’t hear His direction in my life. I feel distant from my family; I don’t really fit in anywhere. I feel distant from myself; My self-esteme is dwindling. Distant is slowly becoming lonely.
I’m stuck and can’t seem to find a way out.
I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown.
So why am I ten feet under and upside down?
~ Lifehouse, Storm
I thought that I was doing fine. But when I see you it’s like someone presses rewind.
Why can’t I get over this boy?